Thursday, April 22, 2010

Music playin' in the background: "Yesterday" ~ Toni Braxton feat Trey Songz

Salam & a verrrry good morning to all of you! (Feels like I'm giving a formal speech ere.LOL)
It's a beautiful morning today. The birds chirping, and the weather's cooling - I JUST love these kinda mornings :)
Don't you?

Well today Ms. Zee - you have a mission to accomplished.
I've gotta finish my OB in max 2hours time so that I can submit my part to my classmate & then I gotta squeeze in a few hours of economics and of course last but not least, I gotta work on my take-home Marketing exam pronto!.

Talkin' abt Mktg exam. LOL.
My friends & I, we were darn 'excited' to sit for our examination y'day when our lecturer told us matter-of-factly that we'll be doing it at home instead and that submission date is on MoNdAy, before 5pm. Imagine our surprise and hehehee...our GLEEEEEE when we heard that! ;b

Then again, it's quite a hassle juga
k take home exam nie since we have another paper on MoNdAy. So we gotta really manage our time properly. Kalau tak, take-home exam ke mana, study Eco pun tah ke mana >.<

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Anws, last night we had a 'semayang hajat' at Auntie J's hse. My family & I arrived quite late coz Abah was stuck in the traffic jam fer abt an hour and a half. By the time we reached Kota D., I was quite zonked out. Still, for Baba. I gotta hold myself together. :)

After Yassin, had a talk with Kak Yati. Baba's condition has not changed, in fact she was hit with another bout of illness y'day. The Dr. however said that it was not as bad as the first one. So, I'm pretty pleased to hear that. Still, he also could not confirmed if 'the hit' would stop or continue affecting her till.... *siGh*

Baba, you're a strong woman & you have a lot of people rooting for you to get well soon. Please Ya Allah, hear our prayers and 'bring her to life'. I beg of you. Heal her with the du'as that we've prayed to you with. Just give her a lil bit more time for her to be with us. Please.

But most of all, let me have the opportunity to be able to smile at her. Hugged her (& it doesn't even matter if she doesn't recognise me) and tell her that I love her. I just want her to open her eyes & know that all of us loves her dearly.

On April 17th, I wrote a shoutout in reference to all my uncles & aunties:

As I looked at each of their faces tonight, I never really realized how aged they all looked. Yes, it's a given that everyone would grow old one day. But I never really noticed, eventho I was 'there'. "Ya Allah, hear our prayers & grant our wishes. Please. Ameen."

It's funny how since you're the daughter or the son, you always assumed that you'll forever be young (well, at least I did). I mean, in my mind though I know that my aunts/uncles including my parents are not getting any younger - the thought of them actually leaving me never crossed my mind. I always assumed that they'll be there. Always. And then when I finally met all my uncles/aunties at the hospital the other day. It shocked me to see how aged they all looked. And it hit me that (YES ZAINAB!) they're not getting any younger and YESS, one day, one by one would bid their farewell to us all (What a sad sad day it'll be) ;(

The Belwaels :) We're quite a HUGE family if I can say so myself. And a quite loud and noisy bunch as well. LOL.
During Raya, Baba's hse (we used to call it Jid's hse) would always be filled with cars. Ye lar kan, imagine 14 org anak. Cucu pun da berpuluh2. Mesti tak ckp tmpt pun nak park kereta :)) I always enjoy family gatherings coz I'd be able to see the happy faces of my family members interacting with each other. And smiling to myself, looking at my father talking to his brothers at one corner. Laughing their heads off with I donno wat funny stories. :)

Anws, insya Allah - with Allah's barrakah; the Belwaels would always unite and care as well as love each other till the end. Blood after all, is thicker than water.

My prayers are for you Baba. I love you. ALL of us loves you.

Signing off. Salam.

“I’m sorry for a lot of things, but most of all that I never got the chance to tell you that, no matter what happens next, I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment I spent with you. And even though I keep fumbling for the right words, all I really wanted to say was thank you.”

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A Million Little Pieces

“When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it’s a beautiful place and there’s only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like it. I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you.”

Thursday, January 21, 2010


Hye ya'll,

I'm seriously questioning myself if pursuing my MBA full-time with 6 papers in tow is a good thing or not. It's already the 3rd week (how time flies..mmm) and I can already feel the pressure, especially since Wednesday night. Felt the energy draining away from me otw to Sheila's hse to prepare for our presso for Marketing. It went well, and I'm darn happy about it but still...gue rasa chapek bgt seyh!~

I need to think positive *I know*, I need to remind myself that I can do it *I know* - *sigh* ya know, I hate it when ppl remind me that "If she/he can do it, then I'm sure so can you!!" Is that supposed to boost ur motivation or sumthing, coz frankly speaking at times it irritates me. :p Altho I do know that those ppl who always say that was just tryna be helpful and steer me towards the "positive-thinking land". It helps once in awhile, but not always.

Well, I'm sure I can do it, iA - with Allah the Almighty's help I'm certain I can! It's just that to be frank, atm - I'm starting to doubt my capabilities coz 6 pprs is quite a lot to handle. Even my dad said so too, when he was studying back in the states - he only took 4 pprs. And THAT was the max subjects they allowed the MBA students to take unless u have the permission from the advisor to take up more pprs.

Assignments are piling up. And the deadlines are crazy! Most of 'em are in February!!! *yiKes!*
How??? How?????
*breathe in, breathe out....*

Hmmmm...I pray Allah would give me strength to go through this obstacle..and I pray I'll succeed excellantly in this obstacle of mine. Ameen.


Never Forget...

Your presence is a present to the world.
You’re unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days, just one at a time.
Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You’ll make it through, whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.
Don’t put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and your prize.
Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem, the heavier it gets.
Don’t take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot … goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life’s treasures are people … together.
Realize that it’s never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have health, hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a star.
And don’t ever forget …
For even a day …
How very special you are

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2nd Day

2nd day of class today. Was a tad sleepy in class as I slept rather late last night. Nevertheless i enjoyed both of my classes and thot that the lecturers were both cool and nice albeit the fact that they are rather strict. And guess what??! It's only the 2nd day of the week, and already we're given an assignment for each class. Well, oookaaaaaaaay - more like a reading assignment where we're asked to read this and that chapter and the lecturers would question or 'discuss' in class about those topics. More like an interrogation if u were to asked me :p

However, I've to admit. I am quite excited to start reading up those chapters. Heh. Perhaps coz its still so exciting and everything is so NEW. Ask me again in a few weeks time tho,and then, i'll be tempted to shout out loud the word 'HELP!!!!' LOL!

But, as they say..u gotta always think POSITIVE and believe that you can do it. So, i will do that for sure. :D

Anw's, I've never thought of myself as a funny person. Seriously, I don't! I really DON'T! However, some have came up to me and told me how funny I am, and mind you - even I DUNNO what is it about me that makes me seemed so funny..NOthing at all..really! :D

But perhaps, a lil incident would 'tell' you how blurr I was today - ate a lollipop after lunch and took a bus to my class. I was late, hence, i rushed to thank the bus driver and threw away the lollipop stick into his bin thinking that it was the rubbish bin. Only when I was rushing down the steps that I noticed that that was actually NOT a dustbin, but rather his bin to put his stuff..embarased, i just apologized and said sory! And I can hear the bus driver laughing loudly on my way down the steps. Hehee!~

I think I'm more of the blur funny person rather than the really genuine funny person. I can't really explain whats the difference btwn these two..but, heh..dun think I've to elaborate more pun about this matter ;p