Salam & a verrrry good morning to all of you! (Feels like I'm giving a formal speech ere.LOL)
It's a beautiful morning today. The birds chirping, and the weather's cooling - I JUST love these kinda mornings :)
Well today Ms. Zee - you have a mission to accomplished.
I've gotta finish my OB in max 2hours time so that I can submit my part to my classmate & then I gotta squeeze in a few hours of economics and of course last but not least, I gotta work on my take-home Marketing exam pronto!.
Talkin' abt Mktg exam. LOL.
My friends & I, we were darn 'excited' to sit for our examination y'day when our lecturer told us matter-of-factly that we'll be doing it at home instead and that submission date is on MoNdAy, before 5pm. Imagine our surprise and hehehee...our GLEEEEEE when we heard that! ;b
Then again, it's quite a hassle jugak take home exam nie since we have another paper on MoNdAy. So we gotta really manage our time properly. Kalau tak, take-home exam ke mana, study Eco pun tah ke mana >.<
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Anws, last night we had a 'semayang hajat' at Auntie J's hse. My family & I arrived quite late coz Abah was stuck in the traffic jam fer abt an hour and a half. By the time we reached Kota D., I was quite zonked out. Still, for Baba. I gotta hold myself together. :)
After Yassin, had a talk with Kak Yati. Baba's condition has not changed, in fact she was hit with another bout of illness y'day. The Dr. however said that it was not as bad as the first one. So, I'm pretty pleased to hear that. Still, he also could not confirmed if 'the hit' would stop or continue affecting her till.... *siGh*
Baba, you're a strong woman & you have a lot of people rooting for you to get well soon. Please Ya Allah, hear our prayers and 'bring her to life'. I beg of you. Heal her with the du'as that we've prayed to you with. Just give her a lil bit more time for her to be with us. Please.
But most of all, let me have the opportunity to be able to smile at her. Hugged her (& it doesn't even matter if she doesn't recognise me) and tell her that I love her. I just want her to open her eyes & know that all of us loves her dearly.
On April 17th, I wrote a shoutout in reference to all my uncles & aunties:
As I looked at each of their faces tonight, I never really realized how aged they all looked. Yes, it's a given that everyone would grow old one day. But I never really noticed, eventho I was 'there'. "Ya Allah, hear our prayers & grant our wishes. Please. Ameen."
It's funny how since you're the daughter or the son, you always assumed that you'll forever be young (well, at least I did). I mean, in my mind though I know that my aunts/uncles including my parents are not getting any younger - the thought of them actually leaving me never crossed my mind. I always assumed that they'll be there. Always. And then when I finally met all my uncles/aunties at the hospital the other day. It shocked me to see how aged they all looked. And it hit me that (YES ZAINAB!) they're not getting any younger and YESS, one day, one by one would bid their farewell to us all (What a sad sad day it'll be) ;(
The Belwaels :) We're quite a HUGE family if I can say so myself. And a quite loud and noisy bunch as well. LOL.
During Raya, Baba's hse (we used to call it Jid's hse) would always be filled with cars. Ye lar kan, imagine 14 org anak. Cucu pun da berpuluh2. Mesti tak ckp tmpt pun nak park kereta :)) I always enjoy family gatherings coz I'd be able to see the happy faces of my family members interacting with each other. And smiling to myself, looking at my father talking to his brothers at one corner. Laughing their heads off with I donno wat funny stories. :)
Anws, insya Allah - with Allah's barrakah; the Belwaels would always unite and care as well as love each other till the end. Blood after all, is thicker than water.
My prayers are for you Baba. I love you. ALL of us loves you.
Signing off. Salam.
“I’m sorry for a lot of things, but most of all that I never got the chance to tell you that, no matter what happens next, I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment I spent with you. And even though I keep fumbling for the right words, all I really wanted to say was thank you.”